I am Watching You and...

...My eyes are open wide now.

They may not have been before.

Learning who I am not.
Day one at a time,
Day two left behind.

Delusions of splendor and peacefulness

are comfortable and ever so needed.

This hour is my happiness.

You cannot destroy me.

I know this because my eyes are open wide now.

I LOVE this....

Truth is within ourselves; it takes no rise
From outward things, whate're you may believe.
There is an inmost center in us all,
Where truth abides in fullness; and around,
Wall upon wall, the gross flesh hems it in,
This perfect, clear perception – which is truth.
A battling and perverting carnal mesh
Binds it, and makes all error:
and, to KNOW, Rather consists in opening out a way
Whence the imprisoned splendor may escape,
Than in effecting an entry for a light
Supposed to be without…

'Tis time
New hopes should animate the world,
New light
Should dawn from new revealings…


From "Paracelsus"
Robert Browning

Where is That Someone Special?

If I met a man... would he be so together and kind... softspoken and beautiful.

Would he worship me for being me... fucked up me.

No false compliments, no lies.

Would he not be jealous or overbearing. Maybe he wouldn't freak cause other men talk to me.

Would he not flirt around. Maybe he'd see no point in it.

Did I mention he's a beautiful person? Eyes even the stars worship.

I

Will

Trust

This

Man

with everything and all of me. With all my d.i.r.t.y. secrets.

It's nice to know he'll never use them against me.

Is it that there are people in this world like him?

How is it that there aren't more?

Someone special for me? All mine?